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An Ode to the Hidden Face of Heath Ledger

March 8th, 2008 (02:47 pm)
current location: Sydney, Australia
current song: Ghost - Kisschasy

An Ode to the Hidden Face of Heath Ledger

This Wednesday night just passed, both of my parent's went to Sydney's Archibald Prize, as they do every year. For those who don't know what the Archibald Prize is, it is 'regarded as the most important portraiture prize, and is the most prominent of all arts prizes, in Australia,' according to Wikipedia. In fact, the competition (as such) is open to any one holding a citizenship in an country in Australiasia.

Any way... back on topic.

My mother came home that night, at 10.25, just as I was watching Carl Williams shoot his Italian counterpart dead on Underbelly, sat down next to me and placed her head in her hands.

This got my attention.

It turns out that the Archibald hadn't been as great as it had been years prior - not saying that the art was bad, just a little bit too artyz-fartzy for her taste. But in all her years of going to this fancy art gallery in Sydney, she had never been moved by a painting as much as one had made her feel this year.

'Heath Ledger' she spoke to me sadly, 'it's such as shame, Heath Ledger, how no one could have noticed'.

Being one of those many teenage girls around the globe who woke up on the 23rd of January (22nd of Jan for some) and whilst making a cup of tea, heard the gut wrenching news that Heath Ledger had died in New York (Trust me, that entire day the TV did not leave Sky News), something involving Heath Ledger was more inportant than a Gangland war that had happened in Melbourne years ago.

So, my mothers words naturally caught me attention.

I had heard through the media that an artist had taken it upon himself to pay tribute to one of our countrys most renown actors, but I honestly hadn't thought of it as anything else - just another person cashing in on the unfortuate tragedy of others. It didn't occur to me that it would have this kind of affect on my normally composed mother.

The painting it self is disturbing - theres no other way to describe it.

Heath is represented through three faces in the artwork, each with it's only hidden story. There's the guy we all fell in love with in '10 Things I Hate About You' . There's the man who tried so desperately to escape the crap that comes with Hollywood on the opposite side of the painting, whose dark expression is even more haunting than the colours in the background. Then finally, in the middle of the painting is Health. That's the only name I can give to him, Heath. In the painting 'Bright and Shiny Heath' and 'Dark and Twisty Heath' are whispering secretively to their counterpart Heath (sorry for the Grey's Anatomy puns, they just slip out).

I am not sure what it is about Heath that makes my chest fill with dread; it could be his brown eyes that are blank voids, the tired wrinkles that make his face look like leather, or his shirtless posture that just seems so... helpless.

In December, the artist behind 'Heath' (thats the actual name of the painting), sat down with Mrs Ledger and Heath Ledger over coffee and pikelets in Perth, to discuss the portriat. In December, a month before Heath's passing.

Yes - that is what makes my body shiver most about this painting, it was created a month before his dealth during a time when the artist himself described his subject as (and I quote), 'relaxed and happy'. According to an article on news.com.au, the portrait was orginally meant to depict one of the three faces as screaming - the very concept an idea of Heath Ledger's and scrapped by Vincent Fantauzzo (the artist).

"I guess it's the whispering, the voices, the frustration or something comical - all the different ways that we might be thinking in our own mind," Fantauzzo said.

Or that of Heath Ledgers.

It makes you wonder what the outcome would have been if the painting had been released the same month in which it was painted. Would the whole world slow down and try and pick up it's latest fallen angel? Would Heath Ledger be laying in some rehab centre off the cost of Spain instead of in a coffin six feet under.

If only.

And yet, we all know that isn't true. This painting, whose release was eagarly enticipated by it's subject was Heath Ledger's last testiment to this world, he knew what was going to happen; that all of that wasn't worth it, it's hard not to look into the eyes of the central Heath and hear that. I guess in the end, one Health was screaming louder than the other one was whispering.

Rest in peace mate, here's praying that where ever you are... that's it's everything you ever hoped.



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The artist, Vincent Fantauzzo, and his painting 'Heath'.

Unfortuately, 'Heath' didn't win the Archibald Prize (neither did Neil Finn!).

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'I Can't Break it to My Heart' preview

February 29th, 2008 (06:36 pm)
current song: I can't break it to my heart - delta goodrem

Since it's been so long since I've posted anything, here is a preview of my latest oneshot. This hasn't been proofed so I big sorry for all mistakes, and this may change from the time that I'm posting this and when I actually publish the rest of the story, but I thought you might be interested.

Enjoy!

I Can’t Break It to My Heart 

With a dull thud the glass of tap water dropped on to the bedside table with a soft innocence that made the whole transition smooth. It was still somewhat early, the night barely reaching 9pm but yet my body ached and my throat was strained with the weight of everything that had come and gone over the last 12 hours.

Gently with gentle ease I stepped over a pile of dirty clothes and reached out into the hallway, my hand resting against the reddish doorframe as I leant out of my room and pressed my fingers of the light switch that had sat in that very position forever.

With a loud snap the hallway brightened as the light flooded throughout the top layer of the house and I fell back into my bedroom. My finger lingering on the switch for a split second longer than it normally did; because this was a near nightly tradition for me. Whenever he worked later than me, the glass of water was placed on his side of the bed and the hallway light stayed on.

And tonight wasn’t any different, except for the detail that he wasn’t working and he wasn’t coming home tonight.

With a deep sigh, I slid my body gently underneath the bed cover and felt my back sink into the bed mattress that creaked softly with the added weight. And I lay there, looking back at the ceiling, not sure as what to do next.  

The rub of the sheets felt raw and foreign against my body that laid victim in between them and the sides of my arms felt naked and cold as if they were exposed in a winter snow storm. It was as if this wasn’t my bed anymore that this room wasn’t actually filled with my things and this house hadn’t been my mothers. Everything felt distant and apathetic as the moon light shown discreetly throughout the house and exposed how empty and lonely it actually was.  I never realised how lonely it felt, having no one next to you.

Desperately, I rolled over to my stomach and into the middle of the bed, searching and praying to remember the last time he had held me in this position. Panic started to rise as I thought back through memories, alarmed that I couldn’t actually remember the last time – the real last time he had held me as me and not just some customary thing after sex.

A shiver traced its way up the nerve of my arm as it was as if he was there, running his forefinger up and down my arm as he had lovingly done once upon a time. Grasping, I reached outwards and pulled his pillow down to my chest, cradling it closer into my chest, allowing the distant though present scent of his cologne to tickle the tip of my nose.  ‘His coming home’ escaped my lips.

 

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Musing about Fics

January 5th, 2008 (06:36 pm)
current song: One Tree Hill by U2

I am going to finish this chapter (MIS 22) tonight. I swear I am. It's not like I haven't made a decent dent in the chapter (1,603 words and five pages isn't bad) in fact theres only 1.5 plotlines that need to be written for this chapter to be complete.

So why is this getting so hard to write?

I know what I want to do and I know what I'm going to say I just... don't feel like writting. Currently the only type of writing I felt like doing is the far too emotional stuff which I know is due to it being New Years and prolonged grieving, but I dunno, I just don't feel like it. 

I could be that the late sleep ins, late nights and housework-as-the-only-exercise of the holidays catching up to me or the sheer fact that I'm a lazy ass but I just can't bring myself to writing anything but this.. and now I'm annoyed that I'm writting this instead of writing my update when absolutely no one is reading this and a few hundred people are going to read my update.

I think I'm getting bored with the story. I envy and admire people who can write 50+ chapter stories with 7,000 words each chapter. They are my cyber space heroes. I have a short attention span apparently when it comes to writing stories. And I was so excited about this one...

I have an idea for my next two projects though (lol, Lord help me). One is a two shot, set around 109 when Addison turns up (there both Grey's Anatomy btw) and the McMarrieds move back to New York leaving Meredith behind. The first chapter is about Meredith, straight after they leave and it's titled at the moment 'Burning Pictures' - giving you a pretty good idea what the whole piece is going to be centred around. The next and final chapter is Derek returning a year later and discovering that Meredith is gone.  It's called 'Flame Trees' using the Cold Chisel song with the same title as inspiration.
My second idea, is a story with a 10 chapters max limit. My plan is to incorporate the messy oneshot that is my attempt at the 'I kissed Rose' convo which ends with Meredith leaving, and then she returns with a son. It's sad and the ending isn't happy, though it isn't bad either. I really want to start this one, which so far I have named 'Bare Hands', but that has been changing daily.

I don't know... I'll see how many reviews the next chapter of Moving In Shadows generates, then I'll decide.

I'm off to write now.


Oh! On a final note... Natalie Imbruglia and Daniel Johns splitting? Thats good material for the next Silverchair album, lol. However I doubt that Britney Spears will make anything else but lost custody of her children out of her hospital visit... so much material waste... does that girls honesty know whats shes got? Nah, I don't think she does either.

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We Didn't Do It 2/10

January 4th, 2008 (09:26 am)



We Didn’t Do It’

Summary: Cristina’s bored and needs entertaining. In comes Alex, who after a pay off, agrees to play one innocent little prank on Meredith. What they both didn’t count on was Meredith’s plan of revenge, which can only insure a prank war like no other prank war.

 

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We Didn't Do It 1/10

January 3rd, 2008 (11:06 am)

 

‘We Didn’t Do It’

Summary: Cristina’s bored and needs entertaining. In comes Alex, who after a pay off, agrees to play one innocent little prank on Meredith. What they both didn’t count on was Meredith’s plan of revenge, which can only insure a prank war like no other prank war.

Disclaimer: If I owned Grey’s Anatomy, there would be none of this spin off talk and Derek would have joined Meredith and the rest of the tequila pity party. So by now you should know that I’m not Shonda Rhimes. Story title is course named after a song and that song is ‘We Didn’t Do It’ by the ever talented Tegan and Sara.

Authors Note: This is by no way a romance story between Alex and Meredith, it’s an intern story.



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Santa Claus and Spastic Computers!

December 25th, 2007 (10:25 pm)

 Hey Everyone,

first thing is first... MERRY CHRISTMAS! I hope you are all having a wonderful Christmas!

Umm, so the reason I have dropped by is to tell you that the update is coming, actually I have been working on the update for this story and also the last chapter for my other story that has gone months without it's last chapter.

In fact, they would have both been done by today - that was the plan - until my parents suprised me with a laptop... yeah a laptop, that has Vista on it! And so all the other computers in my household have XP, and our network doesn't appear to like Vista... so I have no documents on my computer, in fact after nearly 12 hours, I've just gotten the internet. So the update is coming, in fact it's so finished that it's two chapter merged together with just the finishing touches to finish it off, it'll just be up when it's on this computer... not my older one thats just gone spastic!

Happy holidays... thanking for sticking with me!

Babs.

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Dizzy - Oneshot

December 16th, 2007 (12:34 pm)
pleased

current mood: pleased
current song: Dizzy - Jimmy Eat World

Dizzy.

Title:
Author:
Babiblubliss
Pairings: Meredith/Derek
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Spoilers: Up to 411 Crash Into Me Part 2... minor references to speech, that's it.
Summary: It was their dance; the self destructive torture they inflicted on each other and themselves when there was nothing left to do. Except there was everything but nothing they could do.

 

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Moving In Shadows

December 15th, 2007 (10:29 pm)
drained

current location: Bedroom
current mood: drained
current song: Isolation - Snow Patrol

 

Moving In Shadows’



Title: Moving In Shadows
Author: Babiblubliss
Pairings: Meredith/Derek
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Spoilers: Up to season two's 'Begin the Begin'
Summary: Season Two Story. Instead being sent home for breaking her eight hour work limit, Meredith is called in for Jury Duty, and doesn’t return. Five years later Meredith is tired of hiding. MerDer. Pre ‘Begin the Begin’.




 

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Welcome!

December 15th, 2007 (10:01 pm)
bouncy
Tags:

current location: Bedroom
current mood: bouncy
current song: Goodbye - Sneaky Sound System

Welcome Everyone!

So after, well more than a year of writing fanfiction, I have taken the step of creating a LJ account. In all honestly, I have had this for a while but recently I've just felt the urge to do something with it.

So take your time - look around. My goal is to start posting things here regularly, starting with my current story and of course any one shots, drabbles that kind of thing. For any of my readers, you know I love comments, so feel free to comment with anything you would like to say.

But besides that I am thrilled that you've found this and I hope to see you around here regularly!

Hope everyone is in good spirits,
Mel xoxo

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